My Story
I know what it’s like to feel lost.
To carry pain you don't know what to do with. To run from what hurts. To numb. To perform. To try to become someone who finally feels worthy.
After losing my dad when I was eighteen, I entered a very dark season of my life. Alcohol, drugs, unhealthy relationships, and a growing disconnection from myself became ways of coping with pain I didn't know how to hold. For years, I lived in the cycle of wanting something different while continuing to return to the very things that were keeping me stuck.
In my late twenties, something began to shift. I met my husband, Austin, and about a year into our relationship we began going to church together. I started wanting more for my life. I began caring for my body. I started working out. I paid attention to nutrition. And by thirty, I knew I was done partying.
But knowing I wanted a different life and actually becoming free were two different things.
It took another four years.
The door opened.
In 2014, I entered a nine-month program that required me to commit to an hour of prayer every day and meet twice a month with a spiritual director.
I had no idea that one hour a day would become one of the most significant invitations of my life.
My spiritual director was the first person, other than my husband, with whom I began talking honestly about my relationship with alcohol and my desire to stop.
For the first time, I began allowing myself to look inward instead of constantly looking for ways to escape outward.
And then something happened.
I encountered Jesus.
Not simply as an idea.
Not simply as someone I believed in.
But as a living presence who met me in the places I had spent years trying to avoid.
The door of my heart began to open.
And healing began.
A few months later, I entered a 12-step program and never looked back.
But the story didn’t end there.
There have been many seasons since then. Beautiful ones. Painful ones. Seasons that stretched me beyond what I thought I could carry. I have walked through an agonizing season related to my husband's mental health and learned what it means to depend on God's strength when my own isn't enough. I've experienced the complicated terrain of midlife and the painful process of coming face-to-face with the false self—the identities, expectations, and ways of being that no longer fit.
And I've learned again and again that God often does God’s deepest work in the places we would rather avoid.
There have also been seasons when I kept trying to push through while my soul was quietly asking for something else.
Most recently, I put much of what I was doing on hold for a few years to tend to that inner voice. At first, it felt like I was stepping away. Now I understand God was inviting me deeper.
God was teaching me that I cannot authentically accompany women into places I am unwilling to enter in my own life.
I am still becoming.
I'm still learning. Listening. Surrendering. Still discovering places where Jesus is inviting me into deeper freedom.
And that is part of what qualifies me to do this work.
My work brings together spiritual direction and transformational life coaching through a unique, integrated approach that attends to the whole woman—mind, body, and spirit.
For the women I accompany, life and faith are intertwined.
Your relationships affect your spiritual life.
Your body carries your story.
Your emotions are part of your formation.
Your beliefs shape how you live.
Your relationship with Christ touches every part of who you are.
My role is not to tell you who to become.
It is to listen deeply, ask the questions that matter, help you notice what is happening beneath the surface, and accompany you as you discern what God is doing in your life.
Why I do this
Because I know what it feels like to wonder if you've gone too far.
I know what it feels like to believe you've wasted time.
I know what it feels like to wonder if you've missed your chance.
And I know this:
Jesus is still there.
He is there in the grief. In the regret. In the unanswered questions. In the changing body. In the places you don't want anyone to see.
He doesn't shame us for being there. He meets us there. And then, slowly, lovingly, He leads us toward life.
That is the work I feel called to offer women.
My Testimony
In 2020, I had the opportunity to share part of my story with my church community.
That testimony captures an important chapter of my life and the profound work God had already done in me.
There has been much life, struggle, surrender, and transformation since then.
And perhaps that is the point.
Our stories don't stop when God meets us.
What I want for you
When you leave time with me, I don't want you simply to have new insights.
I want you to know something in the deepest places of your being:
Jesus is with you in your darkness.
You are deeply, completely, and unconditionally loved.
You don't have to carry everything alone.
You can bring your whole self to God.
And the woman you thought you had lost may not be gone at all.
She may simply be waiting to be welcomed home.
STILL BECOMING. STILL HEALING.